Some of my special interests and studies that I have pursued are magick, history, mythology & religion - all types, philosophy, sociology, abnormal/ psychology, quantum physics, and chaos theory; Black metal, vampirism, blood, goth, among many other things. Because of my objectivity, constant research, reading and interaction my spiritual opinions are grounded in reality as well as that which I have experienced and have witnessed, i.e., the fantastic, altered reality, the realm of the spirits. I also travel a lot, around the U.S. as well as through out Europe whenever I get the chance.

I spent the better part of my life traveling to Europe. My mother was born and lived in Budapest Hungary and my father in Kolozsvar, Transylvania. We owned a rather lovely estate in Transylvania, complete with vineyard, crypt the whole nine yards until the f*cking communists came and took everything away. It now lays in ruins, along with the decayed bones of my ancestors. Oh well.
My parents stayed until the revolution in 1956. My father was active in the revolution efforts and was arrested and marked for death. He escaped, thank gods. There’s more, but maybe i will get into it later on... maybe...

Me & my T/A, 2002
The rest of my rather large family still lives there. I go back often, as well as check out other countries.
I was also married for ten years. I got divorced in 1998, but was separated in '96. I also have a 16 year old son.
I have an interesting, colorful and unique family history to say the least

More of my family history & pics if you are interested..
(I'm really into history, especially my family history - since there is so much of it)

Something else I have been studying up on is the the Szekely- Hungarian Rovás, aka Hungarian Runes. I bought as many books on it as I could possibly find while in Budapest recently (not easy) . Fascinating stuff. (I am descended from the Szekely tribe, however that is not my main interest.) Check it out..
Hungarian Rovas

Hungarian Runic Writing

Hungarian Historical Chronology

The Controversy on the Origins & Early History of the Hungarians

I have been in the retail end of the occult business since aprox 1995. Many people ask me if I have a normal job besides this. No, I do not, as a matter of fact there is nothing remotly normal about me anymore and I prefer it this way, (most of the time) I write, read, travel, party and live a truly strange life. Actually, my life keeps getting weirder every year. Lot of bad, some good, a lot of surprises, and always interesting.



Me & my cat
This is who I am and this is what I do. I am for real unlike a lot people. Everything I do is real and usually has some meaning- one way or another. I'm definitely not proud of some of my past activities or behaviors, but I'm never ashamed. Hell, I wouldn't be me without them! You cant learn until you suffer intensely and survive it..

My observations and interactions with many people have lead me to believe these same are to white light orientated, close minded or just plain brain washed to ever want to change, gain wisdom or become more than they are. Yes, live and let live is fine with me and something I firmly advocate, however when this mess comes calling on me I have something to say. Or when hysteria and misinformation run amuck, it’s time to clear things up a bit. These souls do not understand the concept of the Dark Divine, the Left Hand Path or the nature of Darkness in general. The concepts elude them and it becomes as evil as it is misunderstood.
They are ignorant in the fact that they judge immediately without ever obtaining any of the real facts. They are so blinded by the light that when they see any shadows it scares them. They really have no idea what lies on the other side.
Darkness is not Hollywood Satanism, which is where everyone gets their misinformation from now days, or so it seems. TV talk shows and the hype they push are as accountable for the mess as religion. All they have done is scrambled the misinterpretations of mythology and ancient religions, and by doing so have created a hysteria. Every time I see one of these shows I feel as if I am living in the middle ages.
The close-minded judge within their own faith and boundaries, closing the door on understanding. If they were to understand they may become disillusioned and their world just might collapse. I know, because when I opened the door to understanding my world ended. It scared the hell out of me, but if I could question my beliefs which were in fact my societies beliefs, the ones which were instilled on me and taught to me as a child, that much and find fault with them (and mainly I must admit similarities with other ancient world mythologies , thanks Joseph Campbell!) , it was time to move on, to let go of them and that stifling mentality. Only then can you replace the information.
You have to clear your mind of any preconceived notions.

Misunderstanding leads to distortion; fear; ugliness; panic. It is the false built upon the false. This is the real evil against evil! What does this mean? New interpretations of the misunderstandings and a whole new tradition of misunderstandings built upon the false information.
Tell me, where does this lead? Back to the middle ages. This is the mentality we are dealing with. Frightening.

Darkness is the place of creation. Freedom to create. Chaos. And Chaos is the means of creation.
Truth is frightening and you must be prepared to handle it. For one to dare to enter the Dark, to learn about yourself, to seek the truth, you must submerge yourself into the Darkness, into the black unknown.
To dare the Darkness is to dare to learn about yourself.
To block out the shadow side of the self is to deny oneself entirely. It is mistaken as evil and offensive.
Only in the Darkness have I found rapid change and growth. It has opened up many new doors for me, as well as ancient ones. I have gained insight and knowledge of a path that is unfathomable to most people. I have found strength and change within the shadows.
Open the door of Darkness because growth, understanding and wisdom await you on the other side